Flaws

Often times I have gone away from a gathering and had realizations. Some good. Some bad.

Tonight I had a couple of girlfriends over to catch up on our tv shows. (You know those ones where it is a lot more fun to watch with other people than by your lonesome.) As I get ready for the night, after they've left, I come to one of my epiphanies; that I'm a lousy friend sometimes.

First, let me say that NO I'm not writing this to get positive feedback or praise. I know I'm a good friend but we all have our not so great moments in life and lately I've picked up on mine:

I tend to judge quicker than I used to. I talk way too much about myself. I forget that I haven't always been able to live the life I do now. I interrupt more. There's probably more but it's late and I'm not doing this for self-deprication purposes. 

The meaning behind this is that over the past few years I've talked about myself and my family a lot. Because of what we went through we tend to be the topic of conversations and people want to know things. I forget that I probably should listen and ask questions as well about the other person(s). As I strengthen new relationships, I'm learning that I'm pretty snotty sometimes. I said tonight that "I don't like hugging all the time". I shouldn't care! If someone else wants to hug me, I need to take it with open arms (no pun intended). I should love that others tell me they love me anytime they please. 

We can become too focused on ourselves and what we want that we forget that any relationship is based on not just one person but both parties. Why should we take for granted the love others want to give. I alone should understand and not underestimate what time we have with others. 

So to all my friends, family, and acquaintances I'm sorry for not being up to par lately. I promise to improve and feel free to give me a kick in the pants if I don't.