Losing someone dear to you no matter if it is by death or circumstance is one of the hardest earthly pains we humans will ever deal with. How do we “deal” with it? I have no idea. BUT through my time of grief and heartache, I have learned little by little. Above it all though, I have learned to deepen my faith in God and hold strong to the loved ones around me.

I have a son. His name is Jaxson and he was one of the greatest joys I will ever know. His time here with us on earth was not long; only 2 years, 6 months, and 23 days. The first year was a wonderful time and I’m so grateful we had those months unfilled with the knowledge of his disease. After his one-year check- up however our lives changed forever.

My journal is meant to be something that anyone can read. A quirky exploration of the rainbow of emotions one goes through with grieving and heartache. Along with the daily doses of ridiculousness and heartwarming stories, I hope to show you how my husband and I have journeyed through our time with Jaxson and pass along the hope that no matter our failings, God is there for us.

I will warn you that if you want a cheery, pick-me-up type of reading, this may not be for you. Life is not always cheery. But that’s 100% okay! Take a chance and read the musings of my mind as I try to relay the love we have learned from God.